| Thanks to all those who have been supportive despite my last post. I guess I've just been frustrated for quite some time now about all those around me who seem to just want to put me down in ways and decide how I am- not letting me be who I am. I feel like I constantly have to fight against those who try and steel my honor or my pride and bash my personality in ways etc. In my frustration I guess I forgot about those few who are still with me. Sorry- and thanks again for being there for me. |
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| This is so stupid! I'm so sick of people who are Christians but don't act like it. I had the worst day at work. I'm also tired of people who act like your friends, but then sometimes just tear you down. I just want to know who my friends and enemies are! I'm sick of this. There's this one person at work in particular that I always am at it with and she'll never let me speak, and she'll say how I always want to argue, and she buts into my conversations and say how I'm this or that. I am never so badly treated my non believers- and if I was, it wouldn't be as bad! I'm sick of being persecuted by the family of God! Is there anyone left that's a good example? I do my best but all I get is this? When I think I'm doing good- I get cut down in those areas and all my work is shot down. I hate this! I don't need this! I'm sick of people's opinions of me- I speak too much, but when I don't talk, then they say I don't talk enough, etc etc! Was I meant to live for people? What the heck do people want from me?! I'm sick of them! Makes me feel like I was meant to be alone- and that's all I want! |
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| Well yeah- I know I've been kind of absent. I've been mentally busy. Please pray for me for those who still read this. I'm contemplating getting a loan and going back to Verity. It will certaintly be different but I need a degree! I won't be doing music- I'll more than likely be doing history or something. I just have to figure some things out- not sure what God wants me to do. Things just seem to have been keeping me here at home for some time now. I also have been struggling with that but we'll see what happens. Other than that- I'm looking forward to going to Jared and Erica's wedding in South Carolina in a few weeks. Just have to figure out what to wear- it'll be kind of weird to not wear dress clothes to a wedding since it's on the beach ;) huzzah!
Ps- make sure to click on the video and listen to my new song! hehe |
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| Wow- I wonder how many people still look at this thing. Sorry it's been so long. I just really haven't had much to write about... Haven't really been up to a whole lot. Looking forward to Erica and Jared's wedding next month! Other than that- I must live one of the most uneventfull and most unadventurous lives ever...! So here's a random pic of my hair! Booya- I took it RIGHT after I woke up to show how my hair looked. I decided to go to church like this just for fun! hehe. I think it looks cool :) 
Ps- my eyes kind of look blue for some reason. I'd kill for blue eyes- that'd rock. |
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| Had another MA tournament yesterday. Earned two 3rd place trophies and a 4th place.
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Yesterday I was supposed to play keyboard for church- but the keyboard has all these wacked out settings and stuff. It's really confusing. Well we had the settings the way we wanted- but when I started to play during morning worship the keyboard was out of tune!! I couldn't believe it. Thought it was just the wrong music or something- but the next song did it as well. Didn't want to look like a dork and just go back to my seat since it wasn't working out- so I ended up playing "keyboard" on the grand piano and it sounded great- glad God made it work out. Still can't figure out why the keyboard is off.... |
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